i sneak glances at you
admiring your character and beauty
a fleeting moment
you made me catch my breath for the 1st time in years
getting to know you better
flirting with the idea as well as impossibility of it all
spending so much time together
you make me think "maybe?"
so many yous
so many distractions
so different each of you
so many possibilities
everyday, i have more and more yous to occupy my thoughts
still fantasy
I am back from a trip that I didnt really want to go in the 1st place.
It was an ok trip, but work is work is work. There's only THAT much fun on a work trip.
I am just affected by the implications and repercussions of this trip.
I know that some things are not within my control.
Where do I draw the line between work and play?
Where do I draw the line between necessity and optional?
Where do I draw the line between obligation and friendship?
I hate the feeling of that I might have let someone down.
I hate more the feeling that my past efforts have done down the drain.
I hate most the feeling that my time could have been spent better.
Job done. Not appreciated. Never mind. Not acknowledged. Never mind. Getting undeserved lorry-load of shit. Unacceptable.
Whats worse, its unfair to someone else who has done a great job, and yet made to feel the unnecessary pressure of always trying to measure up.
I do see a lot of things clearer now, after the trip.
I understand what Boss said. I know what his concerns are. But I also believe that if he was in my position, he would feel exactly the same way.
Ah well....live and learn.
Someone died today.
He was struck by lightning at a golf course.
It was a clear sunny day.
He was electrocuted from head to toe.
No warning given.
At that time, I was at a nearby course.
My dad was just 3 flights ahead of him.
My bro was on the same course.
Freaky.
Moral of the story : You never know when your time is up.
I'd admit I am a little shaken.
What if it was me who was struck by lightning?
Damn it, it would be cos of work that I was there. So not worth it.
What if it was my dad or bro who was struck by lightning?
The last thing I said to my dad was "Can I use the car tonite?"
I cant remember the last thing I said to my bro. Only that I saw him yesterday.
Life's short.
We should all make 1 change to make our lives better today.
Dont proscrastinate.
Just 1 change.
But then again, fuck that.
It doesnt matter in the end cos life ends anyway.
Just be happy.
Yes. Thats all that matters.
And treasure all your loved ones.
** UPDATE 26/10/09 : Newspapers report that the guy is in a coma, not dead. But still...imagine 1 million volts of electricity ran through his body! **
I guess I think about think about doin a line.
But the last time I promised myself
It would be the last time,
Remember that time when I was green
The deepest colour or you bleeds
I felt that colour in my head.
Ooh right before she said
Just because you can
It doesn't mean you should
Oh just because you can
It doesn't make it good
Oh you been down, you been down, you been down,
You been feelin down...
Every time you bleed you always come around.
Remember that time you looked so good,
We knew that we could do and we knew we should,
I felt that colour in my head
Oooh right before you said
Just because you can
It doesn't mean you should
Just because you can
It doesn't make it good
Just because you can
It doesn't mean you should
Just because you can
I felt that colour in my head (4x)
Oooh right before she said
Just because you can
It doesn't mean you should
Just because you can
It doesn't make it good
Just because you can
It doesn't mean you should
Just because you can
It was fun though...thats all that matters. Really.
